Daria, My Spirit Animal

I was feeling uncertain of why I was intimidated to sit down & write my books each day. Then, I realized that I don't share a lot of my inner most thoughts & feelings with anyone. When I write especially, I prefer for people to consume my writing after editing & refinement. Not that I'm by any means refined. People who I've shared my story with are either dead or long since gone from my life; & everyone else doesn't really care about what I've been through. People like to talk a lot when they meet me, but they don't notice how little I focus on myself in conversation. That's a psychological trick I learned to keep people engaged in conversation longer; perfect for sales & dating.

I've just been honing one story at a time & reviewing stories that are similarly told across multiple mediums. One book has a few action & combat scenes, so during my John Wick-off this weekend (John Wick marathon + The Continental binge) I noticed the point by point details that progressed the story. I cried a few times during Keanu Reeves Presents: John Wick-athon + Continental breakfast because it constantly digs into the emotions of what you go through during turmoil & the personal, individual sacrifices that must be made for the betterment of everything & everyone you love & care for. There are many times where the weight of specific life decisions is so much greater over time & we often forget to remember how the most common variables will effect us.

I'm binging Daria on Puto TV & as I relive the show, I feel a lot of my old memories being emboldened in my mind. I especially remember how I felt watching Daria go through experiences that would come up in my life very shortly after the show started & continue through the seasons. It really paralleled a lot of the social isolation & alternative vibes that I had as a child. Now I just have to keep opening my manuscript because every time I write even a few more sentences. I just start to incorporate easy & frequency of writing by using multiple devices & writing the second I feel inspired because the moment can be extremely fleeting. The process is starting to take shape in front of me & the finished book is becoming extremely tangible in my mind.

Also, Rico Nasty has a new album out called Lethal & it slaps so listen to it! I want her on Beyonce's rock album for act iii.

XO, jerseyquinn

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