Up Ended

I live with someone who has chronic pain, depression, autism, & anxiety. It always used to burden me when my partner was bothered by something. Too deeply & it would hurt me. But eventually I noticed that in being a good father, he was a jealous man. Jealous of how I manage the difficulties of the world, jealous of my flexibility & strength, but still cruel & in denial.

If you are next to an expert partner, you should be learning from them not trying to bring them down to your level. Depression & negativity don't need to be passed around to any more people. That's the job of Satan, wherever she is. 🤪 I already spoke to my attorney about what direction my life is going. Up. And alone. Because I know who I am & where I truly come from.

I am still sullen that my pride & joy of a relationship is coming to an end. Mostly because I tried to be the best & feel like I failed. But I can't compete to be the best wife for myself & uphold my husband's shortcomings. Mainly his outlook on life, anger, & poor communication. I went to therapy many times in my life since college, including psychology courses. But I can't fix a broken soul. That is not my job.

I healed my broken heart, body, & soul with the help of many supporters & friends over 2 decades. I need to heal but I need to do it alone. With no one else's influence, doubt, or negativity. I'm JerseyQuinn. Who are you?